A life is what we see - Episode 5

The heat of exams made me crazy amongst my mixed feelings.  I called Siri but i didn't get a response.  So I decided to complete a half module by the night. By the time i complete my first line I got a call from Lahari saying that Rachana,  can you please turn up to the location which I ping you now. I guessed the sense of anxiety, fear in her.  I said,  yes for sure.  Soon I visited the place.  My eyes got red,  my blood got cold. Yes it's a hospital,  anyhow with guts I thought everyone from her are fine.  I entered the ward,  as I had the prior information. I saw Siri and Lahari standing aside the bed.  First half my tension was relieved as they both are fine.  I took a step forward and Siri hugged me really tight.  I'm sorry Raach, I didn't mean to hurt or stay away from you.  You deserve the best in your life.  I didn't get whole scenario.  Then the hospital nurse came and said everything is ready,  you can accompany us.  Lahari said we will be back in few minutes. Lahari questioned about her parents,  She replied,  yes ma'am they are waiting for you.  I was totally puzzled.  I stared Lahari and Siri with my red eyes,  without knowing anything.  Siri again hugged me and said I'm suffering from Childhood Central nervous system.  I was blank,  Lahari said,  I'll explain her later.  You come with us.  Lahari said me to say her all the very Best.  Without any clue,  I said all the best Siri. She smiled and moved away.  I spent couple of hours,  Lahari's mother said me to go home,  because it's getting dark.  I said no problem aunty, I've informed my parents.  Lahari turned up,  she said can we have a cup of coffee,  I said yes. We went downstairs of the hospital,  mid way of the stairs  she stared me,  i said she will be fine Lahari. She hugged me and burst out with tears. I am so helpless Rachana,  I could not be strong anymore. To get faith in her,  I pretended to be strong.  I consoled her, I know it's our exams time but if she had not wished to see you then she would have regretted in her life forever.  I was clueless still.  She took a breath and said me to leave the hospital now,  I'll  call you later.  I was blank again,  I said you take the Coffee or juice to you and your parents.  She nodded,  We got our order,  meanwhile i had to google the disease , Childhood  CNS,  it means brain  cancer.  The glass in my hand fell,  I fainted. After some time I  woke up in my bed,  my parents were surrounded,  my mobile was ceased. I was totally in panic.  It was early morning at that time. Lahari had called my mother  saying that Siri is doing fine,  operation got successful,  then I spoke to her . Then my mother consoled me,  i asked her who dropped me here,  she replied,  a guy called Arjun.  I thanked him later. Then I spoke with Siri in the noon.  Lahari turned up to my place and said can I have a group study,  Siri insisted me to do this with you,  I  gave a warm welcome by hug.  We spent some qualitative time and she said not to ask anything about the disease nor to disclose to anyone apart from Arjun.  Somehow, we completed the exam.  On the last day,  Lahari  gathered all of us , I mean Vaidz,  Arjun, Veer, Shreya and Raj. She asked how did we do our exams,  I kept quiet. Vaividya asked her why Siri  did not turn up,  Is she fine.  Lahari kept quiet,  I squeezed my both hands. Lahari said that she passed away in the morning. I couldn't say in the morning  as I didn't want to spoil your exams.  I didn't cry at a moment.  Lahari said.  By 3 there will be a cremation. She was suffering from long while,  hence we didn't want to disclose this, as she said, she don't want any people to treat with sympathy. We all went to cremation,  one last time I held her hand,  all I could feel is her voice, saying I'm  sorry Racch. Agony was filled everywhere. Lahari being her twin,  she was pink,  she was pale.  Even I couldn't console her.  It was very hard for me to digest,  as she was the best half of me. Now I realized why she avoided me,  why she was not socializing . When her body turned to ashes,  I  could feel her saying,  save me Rachana. Her shaved head made me to stay in guilt. I didn't cry up. Arjun said he will drop me,  I  didn't say a word.  Vaidz said she will accompany Lahari today, let Rachana go home.  She seems exhausted. Even though she was in pain. She let me go.  He stopped his vehicle in mid of the way. I was red,  I couldn't breathe,  he said  me to cry. I didn't,  he took me to his place.  He said to freshen up. I was quite.  He yelled at me,  I  didn't heed my attention.  He gave me hard slap.  I started to cry like a small kid.  I wasn't stable for few minutes he said to freshen up. I didn't had a spare clothes,  he gave me his shirt.  I came and sat in front of mirror,  i could she Siri reflection instead of mine.  I suffocated,  I threw my mobile on to mirror,  He came running from downstairs. He said not to exaggerate,  she is with us,  she will be with us. Have some Coffee,  I'll drop you home. I cried aloud again.  He hugged me tight, He poured some kisses. Yes it went wrong. I was in a disaster.