Depression

Depression? 

Yes we all undergo through this phase, Recently the dismise news of Sushat Singh Rajput which was heartbreaking made many of humans to post on their timeline saying that they are ready to hear the thoughts of pain or the what really made them to be depressed. 

Since I've been through this situation and also I've seen couple of known sweethearts who were under depression,  when I used to say something (particular topic) to them, they used to listen me for couple of times and said you will surely make through this. To be honest,  the depression is not about weeks or months or a year (depends). So when I again seeked the help, I used get the annoyed replies such as everyone has a problem,  we have to overcome and fight ourselves ( I don't balme but everyone has their priorities and life to be lived).

I used to cry,  when I wasn't able to get through the feeling or thing or fate.  I was under insomnia, eyes were red,  I knew those are things to be overcomed but we will be stuck with such emotions thinking that " why me always"? "why god is blind''? . 

But nothing helped me,  I knew my parents are my best well wishers but each time I can't carry my pain as they are aged and suffering from their own pain (health or economy or social responsibilities) this too made me weak. 

So I thought of being independent in my emotions but each time I felt I need someone to listen,  I tried to keep myself equipped with small responsibility so that I'll  make it for sure,  I started to write my emotions in a book or speak to my teddy bear,if this was not working I used share to my best friend (she reads me when I was low),   I cried till my heart is pure.  I knew life is to be lived and it's my life,  I've survived so long,  I may not be successful or happy but for surely I promised myself not to give up,  with least expectations I will live. 

Friends, Family (chuck relatives)  or your loved one will be there for us maybe not forever but they will be there for us.  So if the thing is meant to be yours, you will surely get it. Maybe sooner or later. Just have a hope. 

It's you who have lived your life  ,you know where you have to be. Don't kill yourself,  don't kill yourself. One life one chance to live.  Just be happy, just let go,  just avoid negativity. Addict to new good hobbies but not with people.